How to win the hard battles
A personal story of failing and getting up.
2018- There I was.
Sad.
Jobless.
Hopeless.
I had left my job a few months ago to deal with crippling TMJ pain that left me with 24*7 headaches.
I felt they’d never go away.
Coupled with a hectic work-life and bad routine it was the worst pain ever.
I did not know what to do.
As a consultant, I encounter a lot of stuff I know nothing about.
That is what being a consultant is. I have been solving my clients problems for years now.
I know how to deal with it.
Except when, the problem was my own.
From October to April I struggled.
It seemed as if there was no way out.
Back then, I was spiralling into vortex of sadness and depression.
There had to be way.
I could not find it.
So I did the simplest thing.
I gave up. I quit.
I quit my job to take care of myself.
I had to, deep down I knew I shouldn’t have taken the new job in the first place.
I tried for 8 months until I gave up.
Giving up — had changed everything.
Essentially.
This meant I took a break
A reset.
Till, I finally(phew!) won.
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Everything changed. Now I had 24 hours to deal with my TMJ.
No work. No pressure.
Only a problem to deal with.
A big problem, nonetheless.
But now, there was only one.
It took me 5 months to get better.
Once I was in a better physical and mental space- I knew I could do it.
I studied.
As well as I could have under those circumstances.
Tried taking care of myself again. As much as I could.
I tried giving interviews. Did not get selected- multiple times...
You know what it’s like. People who lost their jobs, know how it feels.
People who’ve been unemployed for some time- know that feeling.
The nagging feeling inside your head. Feeling of englufing sadness.
This feeling of restlessness stays with you all the time..
But now, I was ready.
This time I was in a better physical and mental space.
I knew I could do it.
I had won against the pain.
I knew I could win again.
Gave a lot of interviews.The momentum had shifted. The mindset was positive.
Rejected. Rejected.
Failed in final rounds.
But one thing had changed.
The momentum had shifted. The mindset was positive.
Till, I finally(phew!) won.
I got a good job with a great team and great colleagues.
Finally.
I won.
Winning feels good, better even when you’re dealing with a hard problem in life.
Sometimes, it takes some time. Sometimes. It takes a lot.
And a lot of effort.
And it is all worth it in the end.
